I'm Already Up..(Sequel To Get Back Up:StarKid)

"We can't do this.She has to go somewhere.We can't take care of her,if she won't eat.She won't come out of her room...We have to put her in a home,or something."I heard Matt say.I played with a slingy,moving my hands up and down.
"Please Matt.Just give her a week."I heard Walker say.I opened up the door,walking across them to the fridge.They watched me carefully,making sure I wasn't doing anything.I grabbed a banana,and put it on a plate.

Turning around,I grabbed a sharp,sharp knife,and they all screamed.Walker came and ripped it out of my hands.I screamed.
"OW!"I screamed,throwing my banana at him.My hand was slit,right down the middle.
"Why would you do that?! I was just going to cut it!"I screamed,throwing a glass plate at him.I put a paper towel in my hand,and jumped over the chair and stormed off to my room.

Lauren grabbed my arm.
"Everything happens for a reason.They died for a reason,and blaming yourslef for it,doesn't make it any better."She whispered.I ripped my hand away from her.
"This never would've happened if you came into my life.I would've been with them,and I would've died,like I should have.Because I see no point of me even being on this earth."I snapped,slamming my door loudly.I locked it,and grabbed a whole bunch of tissues.I crumbled them up in my hand,but of course they dripped with blood in minutes.

"Kami."Walker said.I looked over at the other side of the door.
"Yes,dear Walker?"I asked.
"Please.Just listen."He said.
"No.I've made my choice.Your not involved in my life."I said.
"You said you would marry me.And I want to carry through with that."He said.I froze
"Are you asking me to say yes or no?"I asked.
"Yes.Please.Your not like this,you know better.Their death is not your fault.Don't blame it on you."He said.

Of course,I knew it wasn't my fault.But if we really took it back,it was.I just didn't want to believe it was true.Not until I saw their bodies.It was silent,as I thought of the memories I shared with them.My baby brothers body would be mangled,crushed,and dead.Laying in a casket.I should have been with them.I could've stopped it.They would be alive and heathly,and I would be dead.One is better than Three.
"Kami?"Walker asked.
"No."I said,my voice hoarse.

"Kami this isn't you!Your brothers death's arent your fault!They died for a reason,and that's it.There is a time to mourn,there's a time to get over it.That time is coming soon."He yelled.
"Did you see a key word in that sentance?Death's.Apostrophe S.More than one."I said,calmly."Three died.Not one.Three."
"Okay.Fine.Be like this,Kami.But if your going to be like this,then move out because we're not going to deal with this."Walker said.

I went over and opened the door.
"You do all realise,that I'm right next to the living room?I heard your entire plan.And no Matt,we're not putting me in a home.I'm fine.I stopped trying to kill myself.I need my time,and your not leaving me alone for the time I need to get over my three deaths."I said.Matt's face turned red.
"Fine.We'll leave you alone."Walker said.
"But you have to make us a deal."Jim said.

I crossed my arms,leaning against the door.
"We'll leave you alone for a month.Is that enough time for you to be finished?"Jim asked.I nodded slowly.
"We'll leave you alone,and when that month is over you have to go back to your normal self,and stop blaming yourself.Because it isn't your fault."Jim said.
"Deal."I said.

"Fine then move-Did you say yes?"He asked.I nodded.
"Do you need to go to a home?"I asked.
"The Funeral is next month.March 1st."Lauren said.I chuckled.
"Hm?"JoMo asked.
"The month starts now."I said,closing my door.I layed on my bed.March 1st.April Fools.That was always their favorite day.They pranked me,for hours on end,prank after prank.And I would play along,acting like I didn't know.

But now,on their Death Day,there would be no pranks.No Laughing.All tears.From that day on,I would never ever laugh on April Fools again.Sure,I couldn't predict it but I knew I would never forget my only siblings death day.Just like I remember the day when I got paralized.I could have died.But God kept me alive for this reason.So I could experience this pain,and learn something from it.What could I learn from this though?
Just when I was happy...