My Next Messege.

My next messege is about a simple yet powerful word. Love. I'm sure we all know and a great portion of us believe in it. But this is what I want to say: and it is HARD even for me. Love your enimes just as much as you love your friends. As some of you know, I have been bullied most of my life including by my parents. I have developed a hatred for them as most would. But in order to change the world, we can't just pick and chose who we love. Now we can't change everyone, but we can show them love.

I was recently informed that one of my biggist bullies in school was physically abused by his father thereby he lost his sense of empathy. All of sudden I turned my bitter hate into sadness. I don't hate him anymore for now I see what lead him to be this way. Parents play a LARGE part in a kids life. My parents can be considered emotionally absusive at times. So naturally I started having unhealthy eating behaviours.

Here's another fun fact I learned about my dad who is most critical of me. His mother was EXTREMELY critical of him. My mom told me that she even called her shoes and dress ugly before they got married. Horrible right? But my dad had to grow up with that which explaines a lot. It's amazing how diffrererntly we put our anger out.

Now how could I love someone who is critical and mean to me 24/7? Because I don't want to become LIKE HIM. When someone wrongs you sometimes you want to get back at them. But if you do does that make you any better than the person who wronged you? It makes you just as bad and sometimes worse.

Another example and my last: There is a girl at my school who pretened to be my friend and not once, but twice started horrible lies about me. As it turns out, shes adopted because her father was a raging drunk and actually fed achohal to her as a small child.

What I am trying to get at with these three stories are the fact that the bully you hate is broken inside. He/she is hurting really bad and you are their only release. Unfair? Yes. But you need to take some of the hardest steps for a human being to do. Forgive and most of let it go

Now I will turn it the other way. Self harm. Something I have struggled with for three years. When you are bullied or judged you lose sight of how GOOD YOU ARE. Everyone is unique like I said. The is NOT ONE human being on this earth that is not beautiful. A friend told me one time that there is no such thing as a bad person. Just someone who makes bad choices. But again: just take time out of your busy schedual to talk to that person who seems to keep to himself even if he is resistent to it at first.

Imagian what it would be like to be all alone. Just for a moment. No one you could vent to. No one you could talk to you. No one you could share your good times with. How hard that must be. But what if you were just to go up and say "Hello. How are you?" just four simple words. But they make a person feel loved. Like for once they really mattered. How would it feel to save a human life?

Don't be afraid to defy that popular group. What kind of friends exclude you from talking to other ones? Rise above the clique you belong to. Be your OWN PERSON. It's a big step to do so and you may lose firends. But how would you feel if you were friends with the one person who needed one most? Someone who just may have commited suicide if it wasn't for your kind words to make them feel like they mattered.

Don't be your clique. Be you. My name is Amy. I'm not the outcast or the freak or the werido or the fatty. Many people have said that but do any of you who really know think I'm any of those are truly me? I am AMY. I am nice, respectful, loving, and ready to help someone in need. I am also a woman who will do whatever it takes to touch lives. Now I want you to do it to. If you feel that this touched you PLEASE repost it in my name. But even better... write one of your own and send an invite to me. I want to see what you people think of my messege and how you intupret it. I want to spread this out to the ends of the world. But I can't do it all by myself. Go forward and repost this. Speak you mind. Show the world what WE ARE CAPABLE OF. We can do anything we set our minds to. So lets do just that.

My name is Amy and if you ever need ANYTHING please come and talk to me. I am ready to help someone in need. It's a big step to admit you issues. And I don't judge for I am against it. I love you all and I hope you spread my love to everyone else. Thank you for reading.