It's really starting to sink in that they're dead.
We got Harlee to sleep. She wouldn't stop crying. I swear. She was crying so hard she was pale and puking. Chase rocked her to sleep. It took about 2 hours... No joke. We'd calm her down, and then she'd see a picture on the wall and start crying again. She's still in Chase's lap. We don't wanna take a chance of waking her up by bringing her upstairs. Now that she's calm.. I'm starting to really let this sink in. My whole family is dead except for Harlee. Both of my parents were the only children in their families.. So we have no cousins or aunts. So Harlee is literally the only thing I have. I don't know how we are supposed to go back to school next Monday. People in our county know all about what happened tonight, and they are setting up fund raisers so we can afford to have the funerals. I don't know what I'm going to do. I am pretty much a parent now. I have to be. I have to be the dad Harlee doesn't have. I have to give her what she's lacking. It's going to take everything I have. I'm going to have to give up some things... Maybe not go to college this year, but it's worth it to see Harlee thriving and healthy. These next 4 years are gonna be heII... I can already feel it. It's all just coming at me so fast, and I don't know how to take it in. I need someone to talk to. I need to let things out. If you're willing to listen... Please... Message me.