Im sorry for being like the worst friend to u i should have never told u that i didnt like ur gf n dat i would cuss her out. im sorry for saying things to ur bestest buddy i had to talk back i didnt want to just let her say watever she wanted to me. but i didnt want to hurt u i never did i no that i was acting like a bich n im really sorry i hate the feeling to no ur pist off at me. without u in my life theres like this darkness inside me telling me to cut myself agian theres this lil voice inside me sayin no1s here for u anymore just cut ur vain n die now let the pain go but no matter how much i want to do that im trying to stop cutting for u n for myself but where r u now to help me through this? i no i cant do this without u. i just wish u could give me one last chance i always had a way to forgive u now can u please find a way to forgive me? now that all this has happen n more problems have came to my life latly i feel depressed agian i feel all sad n not wanting to go through it all agian but please come back not just for help but to be my friend agian i miss u here i miss ur voice n i would miss ur face if we met but please ur the one that makes me happy n with u gone im in such pain cuz all this shet happenin n theres nothin i can do n no1 nos what they can do to help me. my mom wants to send me to a consular for cutting n to see what problems i have but i dont opean up to just any1 but to u i can i can trust u like no other person with u i feel safe.