Chicken Soup for the soul No.6

Chicken Soup for the soul No.6

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Chapter 1

Maybe Tomorrow

I hate hospitals; they are cold and uninviting. My father is sitting nex t to me, carrying on a conversation with my mother that I cannot follow. I look back to my book. My mom is playing with a spoon left from her dinner. She smiles as she talks, but it's not really her. She is weak and vulnerale sitting there in front of me. I try to smile, But I do not reconize her. She looks the same, but here she is no longer that strong and gearless woman. On our way to her room, we bought her a stuffed brown dog thatshe now clutches playfuly. I force a grin. I don't now how I should feel Idon't really like to deal wiht illness or death. It's something that should never affect me I know sh will be all right, but I hate the fact that she is sick. I hate her for being sick, but I don't really hate her. I love her. I push the negative thoughts to the back of my mind. My mother starts to talk to me, Taking this opportuity, my father leaves. I sit un comfortably alone with her. She smiles, as though whe is sgnaling me to say somethingI try not to notice. I don't know what to say. There is a barrier of stubbornness and strength betwee us. She didn't tell me she was sick; she was trying to protect me/ I didn't tell her I was worried; I didnt want to scare her. She'll be alright. Outside the hall, the nurses are talking about the elections. "You won't be able to vote tommorrow" I say. She nods. The conversation ends. I try desperately to think of something good to say. There are a thousand things I should say, that I want to say, but for some reason I don't know how. I hate seeing her sick. she tells me to be good, to drive safely, to make her Jell-o and take care of Daddy. I nod. Silence. I mention briedfly my school day, the quiz I took, and what I had for lunch- things that aren't really relevant to this present situation. I want to tell her I love her,that she is the world to me, that I am sorry for the fights we've had but the words are trapped behind our barrier. My father comes in; it is eight o'clock, visiting hours are over. She smiles. My father bends over and kissses her It is their first night apart since they've been married. She plays with the stuffed dog and laughs like a child.I kiss her good night. She reminds me to make her Jell-O ;I smile. I feel tears welling inside of me. she is so vulnerable, I think, And she needs me so much right now, But I am too afraid. I wall see her tommorrow. She will be okay. The preliminary tests look good. We stand at the door, wave good-bye and then head down the hallway.tearsrun down my cheeks. I scold myself; I need to be strong. I want to turn back and tellher how important she is to me, but the nurses are already in the room checking her. I hate myself at this moment she needs me, and I have let her down. I have missed another chance to tell my mother what she means to me. Maybe tomorrow I will tell her. I turn my head so my tears aren't visible to my father. On the drive home, we talk about who will win theelection. The conversation is annoying because allI can think about is what I should have said to my mothe. When we arrive home, I sense something is not right. She will be home soon, maybe even tomorrow. I go to the kitchen and boil the water for her Jell-O

Kelly Jean Laubenheimer

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