Well considering I have a female-dominant friends list (I dunno if that's a good thing or not..), I have been thinking about sharing what goes on in a guy's mind when it comes to relationships.. well sort of. I'm saving my real first relationship for someone special.. but this is my story so far.
June 9, 2013
I'm a sappy romantic who kinda just dreams about his perfect relationship instead of actually making it happen. It doesn't matter if I did anything or not because she has a boyfriend.
I've known this girl for almost a year and we've been through a lot together. I've been there for her through every boyfriend.. every cheater. And we were in one of those relationships where people would mistake us for dating even though we're just friends. Most guys say the friendzone sucks, you'll never be able to get out of it. But in my opinion.. it's the best part. I've been friendzoned by every girl I've liked, and to be honest, I'm proud of it. Because being a friend, you have to earn their trust. They tell you the things about them that they trust you with. In a relationship, trusting the person you're dating is kind of forced. You have to tell them or else your relationship isn't really.. well, a relationship. Anyways, this girl and I have been pretty close, and being a friend means you have to support them with all your heart.. therefore, I support her with every boyfriend she has had, including her current one. And I never try to mess with them just because I know she's happy with him. I don't care who's the cause of her happiness, whether it be me or not, as long as her smile stays on her face, so does mine.
As for her past.. She's had it rough. Some people have gone through self harm or something along those lines. Her scars are visible. She knows I can see them. She knows I notice them. And we have this thing that whenever I see her, I kiss the scars on her forearms. She hasn't cut for a long time, but I don't want her doing it again.
She isn't perfect.. But really, who is? I'm not. No one on this planet is. We all have something about ourselves that we at least dislike a little bit. But this girl.. I love her for her. All the imperfections.. Her personality.. Her past. Because without her past, would our present be the same? Would we have grown as close as we are now?
As for me, I'm doing okay. She doesn't know I'm in love with her. And she may never know. But she's with a boyfriend she loves. Her smile continues to stretch a bit more every day. Her scars have been fading away.
Maybe one day I'll have the courage to send her this story. But until then, I hope you learned something from this. Girls, there are so many other guys like me. You just have to look carefully. Guys, there's a girl out there somewhere wanting a true guy who'll treat her like she's the most important person on the planet. Find her. She's out there.
There are 7 billion people on this planet.. and it was her.
I never believed in love.. but there she was.
So don't give up on your perfect relationship. Make it reality.
- Seth Parker, 6/9/13