My Goodbye Letter
I know I promised myself that this day would never come... I suppose I was wrong.
Hey, everyone.
It's been a while. I'm sure most of you didn't even bother to open this, seeing as I don't bother to look at what most of you publish I would not dare to expect the same. As you might have guessed from the title of this story, I am intending to depart from this website. All of the Group Stories that I was participating in have pretty much fizzled out (and those that did not, I am fully intending to continue my obligation. That will be the only thing I will be doing on this website, though.) so I find myself at a bit of a loss as to why I should stay. I have had several accounts over the years, my first one being BrainDead when I was a freshman in high school in 2009. Over the years I have watched the integrity and social structure of this place warp and grow into something completely unrecognizable... to put it blankly, I no longer feel comfortable or welcome here. I do not intend to waste my time and talents on people who do not appreciate it as others do.
I do not like to brag. Nor am I one to “go on†about myself, or my own personal life. This is, however, most likely the last thing I will ever post on this website (barring what I do for the Group Stories I have an obligation to), so I will not limit myself... I write for a living. Literally, the written word is the lifeblood of my soul, and I have been striving to perfect my skill for over a decade. So when everyone around me... the things I see, the things I do not see, and the overall social structure and set of obligations that we as Quibblo Users are expected to follow... I feel as if I am the only one who takes this as seriously as I do. Writing is a serious business in my eyes, I suppose, not to be undertaken lightly and without fully intending to follow through to the end. I suppose I am just tired of it all. Exhausted. I highly appreciate all of you, for who you present yourselves to be, for the things you have written and the doors you have opened for me. To write with someone is a very personal and lasting experience. It is a part of your soul... or perhaps that is just me. Do you understand? I feel as if I am alone in a sea of strangers, and indeed I am. Everyone I have cared for has slowly drifted away...so shall I, I suppose. There is nothing holding me to stay.
A part of me does wish that I could stay. That I could jump in and somehow be accepted into this strange and foreign society I find myself immersed in. It is a false hope, though. I have no illusions about who I am, or of my own shortcomings. I am not the easiest person to deal with, and I know about 80% of the time it is ultimately more profitable to keep yourselves distanced from me. I would most likely do the same in your place.
Lastly I will say this: I have been thinking about this for a very long time. A very very long time. It has been a voice at the back of my mind since the beginning of the downward spiral that quibblo has been experiencing. It is a dying site. Perhaps it will survive... But I doubt I will be there to see it. Please hold no illusions in your mind of any false obligation to say the usual “please don't delete†speech. If you don't mean it, don't bother commenting. I dislike false kindness as much as I do pity. (again just a personal thing)
Life goes on; the sun rose yesterday, today, and will again tomorrow. Despite everything that could happen, including the things that happen as well as what doesn't happen, that will not change. And so it
If you are at all interested in my writing, I will be continuing my work on the following websites:
www.fanfiction.net
Penname: MisdemeanorMelodies
www.wattpad.com
Username:SynchromysticMac
Personal Contact Information
[Just in case any of you are interested...]
Email:
misdemeanormelodies@gmail.com
FaceBook:
Name: Mac Jasper Larson
[if you search my email on FB, you will also find my account.]
It's been a while. I'm sure most of you didn't even bother to open this, seeing as I don't bother to look at what most of you publish I would not dare to expect the same. As you might have guessed from the title of this story, I am intending to depart from this website. All of the Group Stories that I was participating in have pretty much fizzled out (and those that did not, I am fully intending to continue my obligation. That will be the only thing I will be doing on this website, though.) so I find myself at a bit of a loss as to why I should stay. I have had several accounts over the years, my first one being BrainDead when I was a freshman in high school in 2009. Over the years I have watched the integrity and social structure of this place warp and grow into something completely unrecognizable... to put it blankly, I no longer feel comfortable or welcome here. I do not intend to waste my time and talents on people who do not appreciate it as others do.
I do not like to brag. Nor am I one to “go on†about myself, or my own personal life. This is, however, most likely the last thing I will ever post on this website (barring what I do for the Group Stories I have an obligation to), so I will not limit myself... I write for a living. Literally, the written word is the lifeblood of my soul, and I have been striving to perfect my skill for over a decade. So when everyone around me... the things I see, the things I do not see, and the overall social structure and set of obligations that we as Quibblo Users are expected to follow... I feel as if I am the only one who takes this as seriously as I do. Writing is a serious business in my eyes, I suppose, not to be undertaken lightly and without fully intending to follow through to the end. I suppose I am just tired of it all. Exhausted. I highly appreciate all of you, for who you present yourselves to be, for the things you have written and the doors you have opened for me. To write with someone is a very personal and lasting experience. It is a part of your soul... or perhaps that is just me. Do you understand? I feel as if I am alone in a sea of strangers, and indeed I am. Everyone I have cared for has slowly drifted away...so shall I, I suppose. There is nothing holding me to stay.
A part of me does wish that I could stay. That I could jump in and somehow be accepted into this strange and foreign society I find myself immersed in. It is a false hope, though. I have no illusions about who I am, or of my own shortcomings. I am not the easiest person to deal with, and I know about 80% of the time it is ultimately more profitable to keep yourselves distanced from me. I would most likely do the same in your place.
Lastly I will say this: I have been thinking about this for a very long time. A very very long time. It has been a voice at the back of my mind since the beginning of the downward spiral that quibblo has been experiencing. It is a dying site. Perhaps it will survive... But I doubt I will be there to see it. Please hold no illusions in your mind of any false obligation to say the usual “please don't delete†speech. If you don't mean it, don't bother commenting. I dislike false kindness as much as I do pity. (again just a personal thing)
Life goes on; the sun rose yesterday, today, and will again tomorrow. Despite everything that could happen, including the things that happen as well as what doesn't happen, that will not change. And so it
If you are at all interested in my writing, I will be continuing my work on the following websites:
www.fanfiction.net
Penname: MisdemeanorMelodies
www.wattpad.com
Username:SynchromysticMac
Personal Contact Information
[Just in case any of you are interested...]
Email:
misdemeanormelodies@gmail.com
FaceBook:
Name: Mac Jasper Larson
[if you search my email on FB, you will also find my account.]
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Holy hell I was so melodromatic wasn't I? Ain't it a riot 😹
I'm sorry to see that you're leaving but if that's what you want to do then I wish you well on your path.
Mac, I hate that you have decided to leave. I want to stay in touch with you by email or Facebook. I added this goodbye letter to my favorites so that I can go back to the contact info at anytime, so please DO NOT DELETE THIS LETTER. But I really hope you will change your mind about leaving, but I respect your decision.
I'm really sorry about the whole group story! It's just that I no longer had as much time in my schedule for a little while, and then two authors left. Continuing didn't seem practical.
On another note, I'm really sorry that you're going! I've missed you on the site. I noticed your lack of activity here and I really enjoy your writing.
I'm sorry to hear you go, and I wish I could have talked to you more. I feel the same way as you at this point. I hope you keep writing as well as you do. Good-by.
Well, same.
It's true that website has turned awful and I've still got you on Facebook which I'll see you on more than here (because I barely use this as well).
You're very honest and I admire that, honestly I've always liked what you've written though we've never properly talked. Quibblo definitely has changed, especially in the six years I've been floating around, and to be quite honest, it's hard to feel like I can casually make new friends like I used to. Or even get reads. Or find something interesting TO read. Anyway, i'm rambling again.
Live long and prosper.
I'm sad your leaving, because I truly did read everything you put up here. I think it's so great that you're passionate and committed to your writing. Not many of us are. To put something out here for others to see and to critisize is a brave thing, and I agree with what you said. I wish you the best of luck, though I know you're not leaving straight away, but hey, we all could use some luck, right?
Keep doin what ya love doin!
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I cannot truly say how glad i am that you commented this. I honestly didn't believe that anyone would read this, not in its entirety. Yes, we could all use a bit of luck now and then. Thank you, and luck be with you as well.
It alright. At least you read it, and I am glad we are continuing the story. It's a really great story and the characters we have are truly amazing.
thank you, i'm very glad you enjoy it as much as i do.[=
It's not the feeling of obligation making me say: I really wish you wouldn't delete. I never got to talk to you and I honestly regret it because you seemed like an amazing friend. Your stories were great and I enjoyed them. I'm quite upset that I won't be able to continue to read (since I tend to be more on quibblo than any other site), but I respect your decision. I just hope we can get to talk via email... or some other way. Goodbye.
Well if it is any concilation, friend, i am not deleting immediately. I have three or four Group Stories i have an obligation to finish, so i will be on for a while. I just will not be posting any personal works other than that. If you would like to message me and talk, i would be alright with that, or you can email me. I check both pretty regularly.